June 24, 2008

As Deep as it Gets (for now)

CJ started summer daycamp this week. At the beginning of each summer, she has to pass a swim test before she's allowed in the deep end of the pool. Pretty easy for a former swim team member. Still, she really doesn't like having to take the test. She feels she's proven herself already. Why go through it again?

I've been asking myself the same question. I've been working hard these past months to change my life...my family's life...and it's still not done. I think I'm getting there, and another obstacle pops up out of nowhere. Another test to pass, deeper waters to navigate. Maybe that's what life really is...a series of tests. Some we pass with flying colors and others trip us up before we're out of the blocks.

When I look back at the progress I've made during the first half of my pursuit of peace and simplicity, I am amazed by what God's done. I'm also frustrated that we're not further (farther?) along. Part of me thought that it might all be finished by now, yet I have the distinct feeling that the upcoming part of the journey is going to be much bumpier than the first half.

Falling to the depths...stripping everything away and letting it go...was scary. Leaving it there and climbing back up the mountain...learning to live life without all the excess baggage...will be exhausting & perhaps even excruciating. Yet uphill I must go.

I’m pressing on the upward way,
New heights I’m gaining every day;
Still praying as I’m onward bound,
Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.

-Higher Ground
Lyrics by Johnson Oatman, Jr.


Deidre said...

" A Work in Progress " ... The tests are difficult, but oh so worth it, right?

You are so encouraging to me. I love this post and the reminder that it's an uphill battle, but certainly worth it.

Jill said...

I think you've done an amazing job with all of your "life changes" this year....just amazing. I always question whether the treading/test part ever really ends, and my answer is usually no. The pool of life just works that way, I think. And I think that's a good thing. A little testing keeps our eyes on Him.

His Girl said...

excellent job of seeing Jesus in everyday life! this is exactly why I read your blog.

and yes, I totally know what you're saying *sigh*

Amanda said...

hmmm... that last paragraph really gets it for me. If it helps, you're not alone. Keep stepping.
Loads of love... :)

Cindi said...

"Yet uphill I must go." Love that. What a thrill to reach the top! (only to find out, there will only be another hill to climb.)

godlover said...

I don't think we ever really get there, do we? Up the mountain is steep and fearful but it's the only way to go. Thanks for your post. It struck home with me today.

Calaveras Co CA

Alana said...

Wow, I haven't heard or seen the words to that hymn for a really long time. I guess the goal is to pass more than we fail, huh?

Pat said...

I followed your blog from Boomama's post on modesty this week.
Love your thoughts here and can well relate.
Keep Climbing!!

Mrs.Naz@BecomingMe said...

Beautiful post. Keep taking those negative thoughts and frustrations captives...don't let them steal your joy. We'll never be perfected this side of Heaven, but with Christ, we get closer and closer. All the progress you have made is wonderful. Your heart is beautiful too.