Fifteen

The worst pains we experience are not those of the suffering itself but of our stubborn resistance to it, our resolute insistence on our independence. ~ Elisabeth Elliott, Keep a Quiet Heart

After taking this step, I wholeheartedly agree.

Sixteen

What God is bringing you through is preparation for what He's taking you to.

Paraphrase from Dr. B. Courtney McBath

Seventeen

My nerves are raw, stretched so far they threaten to shred. Veins tight, at the ready to explode. Today, I grasp the meaning of "jump right out of my skin". I can think of no words more appropriate.

I am tired of the waiting.

Exhausted by the waiting.

So OVER the waiting.

And yet, we wait.

Today I want to kick and scream and demand an answer. Truth be told, I have.

And still the waiting.

No news is not good news. It's nothing but the agony of one more day without an answer. Without knowing. Without being able to move. My muscles ache, sore from staying in this one place for so long.  I am ready to leap in whatever direction He calls. If He would just call.


Today, exercising patience has never felt more like work.