I'm telling you, I feel like I'm getting it on all sides. I've been studying James 1, which is mostly about dealing with trials and tribulations. My Pastor has started a series about handling life's challenges. While I was listening to the sermon, I was gripped by fear...What are you trying to tell me, Lord? Are you preparing me for a trial? What's going to happen to me?
I've learned that when God is speaking the same thing over and over again, I need to listen up. So I'm really on edge about whatever pending trial is out there. Of course, it could be my attitude problem or the ministry struggle I'm facing...which are plenty big to me. Still, I wonder if there's anything larger looming.
FDR said "the only thing we have to fear is fear itself". Fear and its symptoms scare me more than anything. Several years ago, I survived a season of absolute fear. I'm praying I'm not about to enter another. I know the enemy would like nothing more than to paralyze me with fear and doubt. I realize God is in control and He is trustworthy. But, to be honest, I'm concerned that He's trying to equip me for some monumental burden. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm scared.
Looking back at my journal entry, I remember the confidence that filled my heart. I want to keep that confidence. So, I'm going to do as James suggests and ask God for wisdom. Then I'm going to draw my sword and get ready for battle.
Finally, be strengthened by the Lord and by His vast strength. Put on the full armor of God so that you can stand against the tactics of the Devil. For our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the world powers of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavens. This is why you must take up the full armor of God, so that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having prepared everything, to take your stand. Stand, therefore,with truth like a belt around your waist, righteousness like armor on your chest, and your feet sandaled with readiness for the gospel of peace. Ready to go tell others about the gospel. In every situation take the shield of faith,and with it you will be able to extinguish the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation,and the sword of the Spirit, which is God’s word. - Ephesians 6:10-17
I'm not going down without a fight.