March 27, 2008

Wanted: Motivation

Can someone explain to me why I can clean the attic and the majority of the house in one weekend, yet three days later feel like a complete and total failure?

I haven't been able to make myself get out of bed early, spend quality time with Jesus, or take care of some pretty minor things that really need tending to. I can't seem to muster the energy or put forth any effort to take care of these things. For some unknown reason, I just don't want to deal with any of it right now.

I am, in a word, discouraged.

I'm trying to remind myself that the Lord has a plan for me. That all this hard work is really worth it. That getting up at 5:30 every morning is worth the sacrifice of sleep. That there's a Promised Land waiting, and it's mine for the taking.

See, the LORD your God has given you the land. Go up and take possession of it as the LORD, the God of your fathers, told you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
~ Deut. 1:21

The truth is, self is getting in the way.

Self-indulgence.
Selfishness.
Self-centeredness.
Self-gratification.

Trust me, it's not pretty. Not at all.

6 comments:

Joanne (The Simple Wife) said...

I've so been there. Luckily it's spring break and getting up at 7 instead of 5:30 isn't ruining the rest of the day. But I'm a little worried about Monday morning.

Hang in there!

Joanne

P.S. Cause it really is worth it!

Alana said...

He is gracious to see you through this time! Maybe you could take a small break from all the cleaning and purging? It might do you good to just rest in Him!

Cheri said...

When I don't get up early to spend time with God...I am spiritually dry. When I do spend that time with him I see him all day long.

The choice is hard to make, one that I struggle with myself--even when I can feel the difference.

~ Cheri

Lisa writes... said...

Right there with you, my friend. I'm so there.

His Girl said...

me too! me too!

Bev said...

Love the honesty here, and praying for you to get the fresh start you need. xoxox