I haven't been able to make myself get out of bed early, spend quality time with Jesus, or take care of some pretty minor things that really need tending to. I can't seem to muster the energy or put forth any effort to take care of these things. For some unknown reason, I just don't want to deal with any of it right now.
I am, in a word, discouraged.
I'm trying to remind myself that the Lord has a plan for me. That all this hard work is really worth it. That getting up at 5:30 every morning is worth the sacrifice of sleep. That there's a Promised Land waiting, and it's mine for the taking.
See, the LORD your God has given you the land. Go up and take possession of it as the LORD, the God of your fathers, told you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
~ Deut. 1:21
The truth is, self is getting in the way.
Trust me, it's not pretty. Not at all.