I haven't been able to make myself get out of bed early, spend quality time with Jesus, or take care of some pretty minor things that really need tending to. I can't seem to muster the energy or put forth any effort to take care of these things. For some unknown reason, I just don't want to deal with any of it right now.
I am, in a word, discouraged.
I'm trying to remind myself that the Lord has a plan for me. That all this hard work is really worth it. That getting up at 5:30 every morning is worth the sacrifice of sleep. That there's a Promised Land waiting, and it's mine for the taking.
See, the LORD your God has given you the land. Go up and take possession of it as the LORD, the God of your fathers, told you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
~ Deut. 1:21
The truth is, self is getting in the way.
Self-indulgence.
Selfishness.
Self-centeredness.
Self-gratification.
Trust me, it's not pretty. Not at all.
6 comments:
I've so been there. Luckily it's spring break and getting up at 7 instead of 5:30 isn't ruining the rest of the day. But I'm a little worried about Monday morning.
Hang in there!
Joanne
P.S. Cause it really is worth it!
He is gracious to see you through this time! Maybe you could take a small break from all the cleaning and purging? It might do you good to just rest in Him!
When I don't get up early to spend time with God...I am spiritually dry. When I do spend that time with him I see him all day long.
The choice is hard to make, one that I struggle with myself--even when I can feel the difference.
~ Cheri
Right there with you, my friend. I'm so there.
me too! me too!
Love the honesty here, and praying for you to get the fresh start you need. xoxox
Post a Comment