I've been thinking lately about why I blog. I'm not the only one. My friend Lisa at Lisa Writes (and does she ever) had great thoughts on the subject here. Go read it...now. Based on the comments alone, The Holy Spirit was all over this post. Who knew there are so many wonderful women out there who are as insecure as I am about blogging?!
I've been blogging on and off for two years. Like Lisa (and many others), I don't know how to categorize my blog. Sometimes, I write what the Lord has revealed to me; sometimes it's fluff; and sometimes it just rambles. And that's pretty much who I am...just an ordinary girl serving an extraordinary God.
I have to admit, I wish I were more.
If I were more, maybe I'd have a large readership and astronomical numbers of comments. People would care what I think.
If I were more, maybe I'd get invited to events and meet people. I'd be important.
If I were more, maybe I'd have a BIG. MINISTRY. FOR. GOD. I'd be irreplaceable.
I confess, I've been envious of others. Disappointed and hurt that my blog hasn't "taken off". Frustrated that my ministry seems minuscule and of little impact for God. I wanted to be so much more.
If I were more, maybe He would be less.
The truth is, others may be able to handle being more. I can't. So, I'm just me...and really, that's okay.