February 9, 2009

Trusting & Obeying: Giving up Control

Lately my life seems like a scene right out of "Groundhog Day". Every day pretty much feels the same.

Get up
Go to work (where I'm hopelessly behind)
Go home (where I'm also hopelessly behind)
Cook dinner
Avoid being productive
Go to bed

Thrilling stuff.

God has seemed far away these last two weeks. I know He's there and I see some ways He's actively working, but the intimacy hasn't been there. I miss Him. I've been a victim of my own circumstances and am bordering on feeling overwhelmed, which is not something I do well.

It was in my state of self-pity this week that He reached out and spoke to my heart about...what else...trusting.

The Word:
Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
~Psalm 37:3-4

The Truth:

I haven't been delighting in the Lord much lately. I over committed myself in several areas, and have paid the price. Once again, I reverted back to feeling as if I had to be in control in order for my life to run smoothly...which is the complete opposite of the truth. As Lydia Brownback says in Trust: A Godly Woman's Adornment


We crave a life we can control, and if we give in to this craving, we are going to be tempted to wrest our circumstances away from God when He doesn't act as we think He should.

AND
Do our attempts at an immediate solution mask an unwillingness to wait for God and to live by His timetable?

Guilty, on both counts. I can't seem to be satisfied with having God behind me. I want to see Him in front of me, doing great & mighty things. When He's not, I feel that He's forgotten me.

That is a lie.

And I'm not going to believe it any more.





2 comments:

Carrie said...

Oooooh I so needed to hear this. Thanks for posting it. If nothing else you did was productive, well, this was! =D I'm overcommitted this week and feeling overwhelmed myself.

The truth you have shared is inspirational and helps to calm my anxious thoughts.

Thanks!

mholgate said...

This is so good! I too am working on trusting God right now. We have gone through a pretty big transition lately and I am feeling unsettled. I need to trust Him completely with my future as I walk out His plans for my life.

Blessings!
Melissa